Student poser, presbyterian swami,
When Being and Nothingness ruled the Kelvin Way,
I rebelled by carrying a rolled umbrella
To lectures. I never finished La Nausée.
Chaperoned through suburbs by my virginity,
My act of Existential Choice was pie,
Beans and chips at Glasgow’s boil-in-the-bag
Student Ref. Couscous? I’d rather have died.
Nightlife was homelife, the tick-tock soothe
Of a bowling club clock, long darning needles’ hint
Of suture, so homely and sharp;
Each birthday, a wrapped after-dinner mint.
So, years later, graduated to the glassy Minch,
On the Castlebay ferry, leaning over its rail
Where, below us, a harnessed sailor
Sang from a cradle, painting the ship as it sailed,
I knew, stroking your breasts beneath your blouse,
Both being and nothingness. We kissed like a cashless king
And queen who’ve just splashed out and bought
A Ferrari for the first day of spring.
From the Greek
The tops of the bens and the benside burns are asleep
With nesses and steep-sided glens –
All the dark, gaian larder,
Wildcats and heather-honey bees,
Fins and tails deep in porphyry sealochs –
And the songbirds are flying in their sleep.
That cloud-juiced apple at a high twig’s tip,
Reddening on the utmost branch.
The one the apple-pickers missed.
Not missed. They could never reach it.
Though the garland round Heliodora’s head
Fades now, she sparkles, she is herself
A garland to garland the garland.