The last letter Philip Larkin wrote was to Kingsley Amis on 21 November 1985. He was too ill to hold the pen himself and dictated it to be typed and signed by his secretary at the Brynmor Jones Library in Hull. He told Amis he was going into hospital that day for more tests – ‘only tests, but of course they are looking for something, and I bloody well hope they don’t find...
I was deeply struck by a feeling that the step from the half-life my father had been leading to no life at all was less significant than the earlier step from his full life to his bedbound one. Dying did not seem something to be afraid of. As we – my mother, my younger sister and I – sat up in the small hours waiting for the funeral home to take his body, we drank whisky in his honour and found ourselves reading Larkin’s letter, which he had meticulously filed among his correspondence. It was oddly comforting if not exactly consoling.